It Ain't Easy!

As of 24th feb 2011. Baby is 6 weeks 2 days old.
Since that day onwards....I consider myself as the unlucky one to have morning sickness that last thru the whole dam day!!!!!!

ARGGGG.......................................................

It's as if I am freaking SICK everyday....
- No appetite AT ALL
- No mood
- No energy
- Nausea (SUCKS)
Worse thing is I have to work late shift which I detest the most!!!!
If it wasn't for the DAM "4 months maternity"..................I would have left this job that demands sooo soo much.
Even non-pregnant employees find it hard to cope....WHAT ABOUT ME!!!
Plus this pregnancy ain't one lucky one.....
at some point of time....I feel like giving up!
I don't think I am ready.....Whatever that comes to my nose only irritates me to this maximum extend that
I myself couldn't believe it.
No craving...No nothing!!!

On the 26th feb 2011, after my 1AM shift, during my shower.
I realised there's some light pink spotting and it got me worry.
I was told by my doctor that if there's any bleeding or spotting I have to see the doctor immediately.
But I was toooo tire to visit one in the middle of the night after such demanding shift.
The next morning....Hubby went to NUH A&E with me!

Dignosed:
- Low blood pressure
- UTI
- "THREATHENED MISCARRIAGE"

what the .....?????
At the moment, together with the nausea and fatigue...I really feel like dying!!!!
Even resting at home seems torturing...less to say WORK!!!
I have it when they place me in late shift and a SUPER-CHILLING counter!!!
I have to shiver thru  out the whole dam night!!!
Taking the company bus where than bloody uncle who loves to smoke in the bus and drive recklessly!!!

I have tried means and ways to help with my nausea...but nothing seems to work!!
Baby..please stop fooling mummy!!!!!

Be it...having so much unbearable happenings.
I have to say, hubby has been trying to give in.
He would sleep early just to accompany me and always take the lil effort to give his concern to me!
(which is don't usually does it)

"Cross-finger" please ease my pain!!!!