Monday!!!

Went for my 2nd interview for recruitment consultant...
Waited for 2 hours...as the hiring manager is in a meeting....
Meet up with 3 person in the company...Everything went well until I saw the "Big-Boss".
The CEO....He's really intimidating! I was so nervous that my words nearly crosses each other...
I could feel my blood pressure rising and body-temperature increasing...
真的很紧张...The 1st ever interviewer that sent fear into me...
I didn't know this job require such "many" process to get in!!!
Good news is....我被选中了.
The pay is VERY satisfying....The commission is even better...BUT..in fact it comes with "REAL-HARDWORK".
I was given "consultant Manager" title!
I love it..hahaha!
I wanna make sometime out of this job....
I wanna be somebody....
I wanna earn as much as I can while I am still capable to....
when no one can depend on...I wana make sure I am always here for myself....
Like what I have read from a gf's blog: We're all born alone...
Why expect people to make us happy...
why expect people to give us what we want....
and in return..all we expected often turns against us...

我要学习爱自己.
我要学习珍惜自己.
让自己快乐....

After these few months...I realised and get a taste of alot of things that I thought I knew...
In life...I guess only experience teaches us lesson...not thru conversations.
Or I should say..experience teaches us a HARDER-lesson....

Hope I can click well with everyone in the company...as most of the people in the company looks rather "Ah-Tas" and sophisticated.
I need to look-up on myself...build-up the confidence in myself....

I cannot take it anymore...ample times when I saw things I like...I couldn't afford it...even if I have the money sufficient for the item, I have to set it aside for other stuff...
我已经受够了...seriously...I don't use to be like this.
In the past, I grab everything that I like...and when I buy it, I make sure I get all the different colours of it...
I don't blindy go for luxury goods...that's not me!!!
Realise all this because I felt the pinch in my heart  a few days ago when I went to Queensway shopping Centre..Saw a Sketchers Sneakers that I can't take my eyes off....price: $79 ONLY!
I wander around the shop for 10 mins....tried it on for about  2 mins, after trying, I walk around for another 10 mins. In the end, I headed home empty handed.  No more...I tell myself!
Way to go!!!