Thoughts

Been some days I have not blog.
In fact every night I was wondering..."what should I blog?"
My mind went blank. To a certain extend, there's a lot in my mind that I wish to sound out.
To share..But I can't.
I didn't know Y...The day before. I was all alone at home.
I cried...I cried like a baby.
I felt so pain deep inside. I felt like all this tears has been kept too long.
finally I could let them out.
U maybe wondering "WTF? cry for what?
In life, some people chose to share all their sorrows.
Having their love ones to comfort.
I simply can't.
I ALWAYS sound out my anger...ALWAYS.
But other than that its "FULL-STOP"
好多遗憾. 好多好想说.

I realised that the pain is not over.
It still hurts me so deep. I have been running away.
I didn't face them.
曾经付出一切.
曾经不顾一切.
换来的...........

Everyone has a past. Its a past Yet its a reality.
Just like anyone. He has his own past.
He may not admit thinking about it.
He can deny. He can lie to everyone.
But No one lies to themselves.

Life has been boring.
I can't wait to find a job.
I can't stand this kinda life-style.
I am tire of doing OUR things MYSELF.
I am not LONELY but I am alone.

At times, I wonder...
should we even get marry!
Are we doing it for the sake of the house?
I cannot deny that I do love him.
"Sometime love just ain't enough"
our living habits is so far-apart.
......I like this saying I saw from brenda's blog.

"Shit things happens...life goes on"