TGIF

Gosh!!!!
Shame shame shame!! Shame on me!
Seriously..I know I get a little aggressive when I get drunk ( who don't) but I never expect myself to behave like that.
Went to Doris and Matthew's wedding last night. Keep on drinking.
Beer. Martel, wine. Even spike others to drink w me.
I don't even rem how I got home.
Hubby said I behave like a mad woman. I was talking loudly and full of
Vulgarity. "what the..."
I know he felt embarrass by my behavior.
Emotions suppressed too long??
or simply I am just this kinda person??

Things btw us is not improving.
Our conversation goes like this Judy now:
Me: (saw a cyclist with a few sheng shiong plastic bag @ 8am)
Dear..sheng shiong open so early in the morning???
Him: (silent)
Me: did u hear me?
Him: (ridiculous tone) I seriously don't know how to answer u! U already see the plastic bag than what for still ask!!

I am really pissed and hurt. I am just amazed that they open so early. That's all.

What is happiness??
It's a space. I am far from that space.