I am writing down all that I can remember .. thus I can reminisce all these memories when I becomes 人老珠黄.
This is BLACK! 我的Bee!
Disguising as a 肥肥的咸蛋He-Lo.
(@ Eden's chalet for his 2 yrs old birthday)
This is US @ 上海多丽.
(Our First Encounter)When I am still with Mickey,he brings me to Black/Shunxing/Zhonghua'sss Office @ Hong Leong garden
as he is meeting them to play DOTA there. Me n black 1st contact was blend. We merely smile to each other. That's all.
(My 1st Impression About Him)Super-刀
Quiet
Stern
Rich
Young-entrepreneur
人如其名 "黑黑的"
(His 1st Impression Of Me) "As told by him"
静静的
seems like 一个非常好 & 听话的女朋友
LoL....sounds like we are talking about the wrong person here.
He told me he always peeps on me. There's some kind of attraction he has towards me. Very pure kind of attraction, not in terms on feelings. He even went asking Shunxing & Zhonghua some questions which he could not remember exactly what it is, but the answer from them is some how like "if sharon 会离开 Mickey, 我的头拿下来给你踢"
(Our Second Encounter)
St James.
After I agreed to broke up with Mickey, I drink every night. Almost every other day I will be there or BQ.
This is how we met each other. A Hi, a couple of drinks & we exchange numbers. But after doing so, we still didn't contact very often as I am too obsess living in my alcohol maze. after sometime, he will sms me to ask if I am off to St James. Most of our contact points will be DF.
MY 1st day of work @ OCBC, he sms to say that he's going to he's office @ Jurong area which is near JP where I work, he asked if I wanna meet for lunch. Our 1st meal together was kind of awkward as I never see myself eating with "this guy" whom I never imagine talking to. Subsequently he is ALWAYS around my area. He fetch me to & fro to work almost everyday.
He did went through a lot as after some time did I realised he likes me. A couple of times, I went back to Mic after he showed me he had changed. Which is a good thing. What is bad is....I too have changed. Emotionally ..N most importantly is my life-style. I drink every night, I CLUB too often. which he cannot accept. He can't adapt ME who devote 24/7 for him in the past, forsake all her friends, her own leisure just for him..now becomes a hard-core drinker & clubber. When I am with Mic, black simply knows it as I won't reply sms or sms him. He will leaves quietly. N when I leave Mics again, we will see each other in clubs again. These cycle goes on & on. I felt so guilty towards the pain I used to give him. I remember he played this song in Friendster when I MIA again.
I remembered clearly I was at Mic's house in the morning while listening to this song. I cried.
I felt his pain. That's the time I finally realised nothing's gonna work out between me & Mic anymore. He wants the OLD me..But it's a NEW me. I can never be who I used to be after going through so much. Even without Black's presence, the only thing that is differrent is the cycle will runs a couple more times. Thus I left him for good. This few sentence of the lyrics .."I don 't know how to tell you......it simply fits in to that suitation"
究竟应该继续 还是该放弃
没有人能了解我 现在的心情
想看你 想躲你 难以决定
每当我想靠近 你总会装冷静
眼看你的表情 仿佛已经说明
我只想要证明 我们这段爱情
也许在你眼里 它只是个游戏
我只想要靠近 也很想要抱紧
会想到那过去 和现在新的你
我还想要参与 你的生活点滴
能不能够让我 再说我爱你
还是你已不想听
能不能够把你 彻底的忘记
我是真的搞不清
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