我的承诺

Been really tire these few days.....
thus have been feeling too lazy to blog.

Recap:

Saturday: Played MJ with feng & audrey.
I won $130++. BUT only took back $20.
Reason: Mr 敢敢 He-Lo 小黑 lose $110++.
打麻将 "五" 输 "五" 赢 is very normal!
Plus its friendly match. I am not out to earn $$$ by playing MJ!
But my "He-Lo" within 一个东, kana 包 2 TIMES!!!!
1st 包: 他在听牌. "pin-hu" 4 台. Audrey have 9 tiles of 万子 + 1 animal. He simply just decard the 万子 that he just gotten. To me it's a stupid mistake! Y?  kana 包5 台 not worth it. plus by throwing that doesn't 100% means U will "GAO".
2nd 包: I have 4 animals outside. 包大牌 and its 北风. Moreoever I already announced 包大牌. This cartoon not even 4 台 or 听牌. SIMPLY threw out 北!!!

After MJ, we went to 上海多丽 as Its Xiaomei's birthday.
Kinda bore as I don't really like that place. Music so-so, crowd so-so.
It's so crowded. When we reached, only abt 3 out of 20 people I know. Plus they R mostly drunk!
Had a tiff with black over some minor stupid issue. Have to admit it's due to my unreasonable nature.
I don't know how we ended having a big quarrel with us ended up sleeping @ 2 different places.
I am terribly remorseful of what I have done.
从小到大..I have never felt so remorseful before.
When we r eating 肉骨茶 @ night, I look into the very tired-out eyes of black. 我的心很酸.
I kept looking @ him when he is busy eating "you-tiao". At 1 point my tears nearly rush out.
I am terribly 后悔about all the I have done to him...Never had I took a step back to look at how tire...how drained up this man that I claimed I had love is.
I could SUDDENLY some how felt the mind that's breaking up due to work, family & ME inside him.
After that dinner, I told myself. "This is the man that I will walk with till the very last day of my life."
I am firmed. "shi shi wu jue dui" I understand. But NOW I am holding to this 承诺 that I have just told myself.